"Love is a choice, and God chose you"

fear;

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and of a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7

As I stared at the screen knowing that I've started a war I've never fought before, fear crept into me. The reality and the possibility of failure is standing in front of me, I've never failed a subject before, and now I'm actually facing this possibility. I turned to God with my crumpled spirit, my heart filled with so much fear and terror. I heard these words whisper in my soul "I have not given you a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, of love, and of a sound mind"

Today I face my fears again, but now knowing that I am not alone. "I'm closer than you know."

I know my God is true and great when I scroll through insta and I see the same verse whispered to me yesterday :)  and it tells me to overcome fear with the weapons God has granted me with. 

Always amazed at how You speak to me :)

"The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit. You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God" Psalm 51: 17

Sometimes I wonder what You're really after.. 

Psalm 62: 11-12

One thing God has spoken, two things have I heard; that you O God are strong, and that you O God are loving. Surely you will reward each person according to what he has done.


These words were spoken to me when I was in a dark room, exhausted over all the work and sleepless nights. I could feel my weary self slowly giving in. I asked God "why? If I put in this much for You, God, what would it all come to?"

He will reward each person according to what he has done, and He has always kept His word. :)

No.

It's okay to say "no" sometimes.

Not all things are meant to be given away, not all things are meant to be ours.

:)

Dear 2015;

I had so much fun in 2014, to be able to have the opportunity to be myself and just to be selfish for a little while, to be happy and experience little joys in life. I've lost friends but gained more valuable ones instead, I've learned how to treat myself well and give myself a little more credit than I use to. I remember having a hard time moving on from this relationship I had and I was praying so hard about it cause I couldn't let go, but that weekend I went to church and the preaching was about closing that chapter in your life. It is over, it is done, He's got a good story on the other chapter and all I have to do is turn the page. I feel the same today, it is time to close this chapter and to experience the good God has always intended to put in my life. 

I tried a little harder in the things I'd like to achieve and have reaped what I sowed. The only thing I have to learn, is to love a little more this year :) I had enough of me and I hope to open my heart a little more, to be able to care for the people around me, and to properly love with no fear. 

I use to be terrified to care and love like I used to, but hey, what is life if everyone closes a door on you? What if you find a treasure opening that one door, and your life would never be the same again? Because 'perfect love drives out fear' right? :)

To 2015, I know you'd be a good one. 

Christ is enough;

I remember the first time I heard this song, I felt like I had nothing left of me. I lost my joy, my esteem, self-worth, myself. I felt like I let Him down and I was standing before Him with nothing to offer but my sorry self. 

As the lyrics played, I felt His love and grace fill me. His grace is enough. HE is enough for me. 

"Forget the former things, do not dwell on the past" -Isaiah 43:18

"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesS so that Christ's power may rest on me" 2 Corinthians 12:9

I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back :)